“‘Tis the season to be jolly…fa la la la la la la la la” Did you sing it? Did you count the La’s to make sure there were enough to sing it correctly? It’s what I do every time, but especially this year! For the last 10 years, I was a working mom. Prior to that I was a stay at home mom for 7 years. Thanks to this worldwide “pand-y” (you know, the “p” word, pand- and ends with and rhymes with epic), I am now a stay at home mom again. So, maybe in some areas I have a little too much time on my hands to think or overthink lyrics to a song or what I should be doing next.
If you read my previous blog post, you know how overwhelmed I have become. Part of it I have no problem blaming it on the “pand-y”, but this year has also been a blessing for my family. While that doesn’t erase the fact that we are down to one income, kids are still trying to go through the many challenges in online school, and not being able to see friends and family as often, we still have so much to be thankful for.
I had no idea giving birth to our 5th child would be like this! I thought I’d be going back to work and the kids would be back in school on school grounds. At the same time, I was trying to figure out how I could be home with my kids because I missed it so much. God definitely had different plans for us in this season.
Somewhere in the middle of all the raging thoughts, I think of all the times we struggled. When we had 3 kids and no one knew how bad things really were for us. It was tough. Sometimes we didn’t even know where our next meal would come from, but looking back, God always provided. I think of those families who aren’t always able to provide because of unforeseen circumstances that they have no control of. I go into this season with prayer for them.
This year, I have hesitated to even put up Christmas decor. I have had a heavy heart. If you don’t know this about me, I am a feeler, even if I don’t know specific people going through this, I feel it. I will put the tree ornaments on later this evening, but as I put each one on the tree this year, I will say a prayer of hope, peace, blessing, healing, protection, love, and care for all of the families struggling. All of the people who feel alone. All those who lost a family member to this horrible sickness this year. I will pray for those who are still battling the sickness, those who are hungry, thirsty, and need shelter.
God I thank you for your love for each and every one of us. God I thank you for being all knowing. Lord, sometimes we may not understand the why, how, when and where of our life circumstances, but we trust you. Lord I pray for each of us who are hurting. I pray for each one of us who don’t understand why and are angry. God, please heal our land. Please heal our hearts. Bring us together in unity. Keep our eyes and hearts fixed on you. I pray for protection from harm, peace in the chaos, comfort amidst loss and isolation, love for those who feel unloved, restored faith, divine healing, full bellies for those who are hungry and thirsty, and safe shelter for those who are in need. Thank you Lord for hearing the prayers of your people, your children. I love you Lord, in Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.